What is this you don't know what you've got until it's gone crap? I knew I would be missing out on practically every morsel of food that wasn't liquid or pounded to nothing but I didn't know I'd starve to death. After a while, it's like you don't even know you're hungry anymore; you're just too delirious. What's worse is the pain. Oh no, this isn't just your typical sudden-blast-then-it's-gone pain. It's the advance-slowly-then-hurt-like-shit-for-possible-days-even-with-many-drugs pain. I'm not joking. It kept me up at night, forced me to slurp my stupid food from a straw (then give up) and made brushing my teeth (which is now to be a 20 minute ordeal every morning, afternoon and night) hell. Plus MY LIPS ARE AS DRY AS A FREAKING DESERT. Shit simile, I know, but stfu I recently obtained braces. I need to carry my lip balm everywhere now. I also made the moronic mistake of not getting porcelain metal top and bottom, so I have to suffer with nice braces at the top and normal metal pink ones at the bottom. Stupid, stupid guilt. I already felt bad for adding an extra $300 on the top and then I find out when we get home that my mum wanted porcelain metal at the bottom for me and thinks the bottom looks fug. Gee, thanks for not telling me that before mum. But at least she shed the pain in a new light for me, "Lyn you need to go through this pain to be beautiful. You want to be beautiful don't you?" Well sure I do. I guess.

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What is this you don't know what you've got until it's gone crap? I knew I would be missing out on practically every morsel of food that wasn't liquid or pounded to nothing but I didn't know I'd starve to death. After a while, it's like you don't even know you're hungry anymore; you're just too delirious. What's worse is the pain. Oh no, this isn't just your typical sudden-blast-then-it's-gone pain. It's the advance-slowly-then-hurt-like-shit-for-possible-days-even-with-many-drugs pain. I'm not joking. It kept me up at night, forced me to slurp my stupid food from a straw (then give up) and made brushing my teeth (which is now to be a 20 minute ordeal every morning, afternoon and night) hell. Plus MY LIPS ARE AS DRY AS A FREAKING DESERT. Shit simile, I know, but stfu I recently obtained braces. I need to carry my lip balm everywhere now. I also made the moronic mistake of not getting porcelain metal top and bottom, so I have to suffer with nice braces at the top and normal metal pink ones at the bottom. Stupid, stupid guilt. I already felt bad for adding an extra $300 on the top and then I find out when we get home that my mum wanted porcelain metal at the bottom for me and thinks the bottom looks fug. Gee, thanks for not telling me that before mum. But at least she shed the pain in a new light for me, "Lyn you need to go through this pain to be beautiful. You want to be beautiful don't you?" Well sure I do. I guess.

12:59 PM