Tuesday, October 14, 2008
you'll go and i'll be okay, it's just a little touch of fate, i can dream the rest away.
School has officially kicked off on what is not altogether a bad note. I never realised how much I missed the walks from my bus stop to home. Well, until today that is. I love the whole sunny vibe that comes with everything else in Spring. My street is lined with trees which have these pretty purple petals and they compliment the sky and Sun perfectly. It's like you're in a different, peaceful place not, you know, 100 metres away from home. I'd been looking on the start of term with much trepidation: it's the last quarter of a wonderful year that I don't want to end. It's sad that this year went by so rapidly, even though I might have been guilty of wanting it to end for the bigger part. Why can't there be some tape player type that rewinds and fast-forwards through the best years of your life? Then I wouldn't have to mope around and have all these regrets of never doing all the things I wanted to. Or should have but was scared to. It's shit that people think they can make resolutions on NYE and stick to them. It never works. And if it does it's only for stupid people who have too-simple wishes. Well, maybe. I read somewhere that nothing is ever easy or simple. We're all brought up to see and critique all the detail in the world and when something appears to be anything but complex it's because we're not looking close or hard enough. Or maybe we're just trying to convince ourselves otherwise. That's what I believe. Or try to tell myself anyway. I know I'd never survive this term if I looked at it like that though. It's freaking hard to convince yourself of anything most of the time. My yearlies are coming up quite soon and then, finally, I'll be able to really breathe again. I'll let go completely because the interval after that and before Summer will be the best time I've had in a few years. I'm sure of it. For now, I'll take it one day at a time and be happy of what I've gotten through. Put my head down and attempt to get in the flow of things again. Sometimes, I really don't know if I can take any of this school business anymore.
NB: I finally bought the Tokyo Look Book! For more than it's original worth but I've finally got it haven't I? 
Also purchased a dress from General Pants but photos are for later because it's waiting to be swapped for a smaller size. Same goes for the decade-ago 30/9 outing.
Also purchased a dress from General Pants but photos are for later because it's waiting to be swapped for a smaller size. Same goes for the decade-ago 30/9 outing.Labels: school isn't complete without pain, thoughtful much?
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